passionate.

Please lay down your arrows
For they're sure to pierce the skin
And water from a broken well
Will make you thirst again
When all things you've acquired
Are tested by the flames
And you can see them melting
Then will you call his name

It's worth it brothers
It's worth it friends
To know your maker
To lose your sin
Did you know that you are dearly loved

To the slaughters you are being led
Being told that it's a party
That this God is in your head
And every single lie
Sounds just like the greatest truth
But the one truth you're not hearing
Is that he died for you

No greater joy
No greater peace
No greater love than this

It's worth it brothers
It's worth it friends
To know your maker
To lose your sin
Did you know that you are dearly loved

For out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.

As I read the above verse this morning, I really began to ponder on what has really been occupying my heart these days. There was a time when I would feel really bad whenever I would say something negative or degrading, whether it be on purpose or impulse, simply because I knew that they were just products of what I was holding on to within. I got sick of it and I just really longed and desired for the flushing out of these traits and thoughts from within and. Thankfully, I believe that I've really come a long way from the past me.

Now I really have to be on guard though. I just have this belief that the heart is a dwelling place that constantly needs something or someone to occupy it. As a result, I believe that when something is forced out of the heart, something or someone else needs to take its place immediately. This is where the desire and longing for God really becomes critical. I believe once He takes up all the space in one's heart, that person will tend not be subject to evil or corruption, at least not from within.

Stop for a moment and just think about the things that have been occupying your heart these days. Are they reflecting the things you say or do? If your sick and tired of the things you've been holding on to or if your simply looking to treasure and hold on to something new, God is waiting...

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

I've encountered a blockade in my flow in life as of late. I feel so uninspired, so unmotivated. I feel as if life itself has come to a screeching halt after going really fast and hard for a really long time. This time last year I was anxious about university acceptances, working my butt off and all. Now I'm actually in one (coughs, coughs) but things haven't really gone the way I envisioned and planned them to be. I certainly would have lost it by now if not for some of the things that have been really keeping me at bay. After all, everything happens for a reason and everything works together for good right?

I have to admit that the past two years have become so redundant and repetitive. Consequently, I became comfortable and cozy with my pace and direction in life. I did not really desire for change. But change has forced it's way into my life, and most likely it was with the aid of divine intervention. I just really have a strong feeling that God is shaking things up for me—for my life, and it is of great importance that I just continue trust in Him to do His work in me at this point.

But yea, looking back, I can say that I am pretty amazed and thankful at the recent developments and changes in my life and circumstances. I finally started to drive, picked up the keys once again (taking it seriously this time), rekindled a friendship, and got excited and pumped up for God and ministry in a way that I have not felt like in a while. Perhaps even the urge to blog could be a part of this new direction and flow in life.

Still, there are many uncertainties present in my life and I'll just have to maintain a strong heart and attitude. Perhaps this is but a test, and I have to put my trust in God even more, like never before...